Baby Doll

wow i havent updated in a long ass time, sorry folks but im sure you'll get over it soon it a later. so lets see tuesday mike, billy and i went to jenns and travis's house fo a lil bon fire party thing, it was my girly izzys bday and i really wated to see her so i went. well we got there and god i was tired as fuck, but i started drinking and woke up a lil bit. jenn talked us all into playing truth or dare, i hate that game sometimes. but i wasnt the one getting picked on this time thank freakin god. me and jenn kept daring billy to kiss her friend angel, ok im sorry the girl seemed like a sweet girl at first but then as the night went on i kinda changed my mind on that, and she really isnt anything great to look at, and billys a lil horny bitch so jenn and i knew something would go on with that. well anyways we first dared him to just give her a peck and he did, then make out and he did, and then i dared him to shove his dick in her face and he was all like touch it and make it hard...ahahahha it was great, well she would and he just said fuck it and shoved his cock in her face, but i dont think he whiped it out at all. then fuckin travis was like dayna do you know what tes baging is? and i was like yeah i know what it is but i cant remember, so what does he do? he comes over by me and put his feet on the arms of my chair i was sitting in and puts his damn croch in my damn face, and i mean right up there, just put it this way for now on im saying i know what everything is, because i really dont wanna go through that again. well anyways billy is getting drunk as fuck, my freakin god. well hes all walking by their creek and whatnot and all of a sudden he just falls over, it was so funny, everyone else was just letting him lay there, and i wasnt just gonna let him lay there because he i didnt know if he might of fallen in dog shit or not, but i went over by him and he's all like i thought i was going to puke but im all good now, so i help him up and helped him walk about to his chair and then we all just get back to bullshitting, izzy and her boyfriend dan go in jenn and travis's house to go to sleep. billy was asking jenn where his keys were so he can go to sleep in him car, so he did that. then like a few mins later angel's cell phone goes off and its billy telling her to come to the car with him, and shes all having the biggest smile on her face ever, then she gets off the phone jenn was like you'r gonna fuck, and she told her she better se a condom and she was like i dont have any so i went in my purse and threw 2 of them at her, she grabed them and walked her ass to that car, like maybe 10 mins later mike was like lets go to the car and fuck with them, hahahahahahah oh my lordy it was so funny, the windows were all fogged up, and all of a sudden mike runs up to the car and rubs his belly on the window. when we get back not even 5 mins later angel comes back and was like hes not feeling to good, he told me he was gonna be sick. me and jenn just looked at eachother and giggled...lol. she told us they fucked blah blah blah, times passes, started getting daylight, started getting cold and sobering up, wanted to go home. ok well now were all getting ready to leave and were all by billys car and angel looks at me and whispers to me that they didnt use the condoms that i freakin gave her, im like freakin out, but laughing at the same time, and jenn kept telling her she better not hope shes preg, and whatnot, then travis leaves to go take her home and we finally wake bily up and he unlocks the car doors, and as soon as we opened them a tidelwave smell of smelly cunt came out, it was just plain out sick, i told billy he was staying in the backset because there was no way in hell i was going back there. he gets this seat cleaner in the trunk and cleans it all off, and while he was doing that me and jenn were going through a few of his cd's and she ended up taking some....hahahahh. were all dogging him for fucking her and he was all like it was only for a few mins and i asked her if i can get her in the ass and she was all up for it and he did and then after that he went limp and kicked her out. hes all proud of getting her in the ass too. even today he was all like i should of donkey punched her....lol. well after we start pulling out of jenn and travis's drive way billy opens the door and just starts puking it was so grose it wasnt even funny. we finally get home and i fell right to sleep. then the past two days have been nothing but BORINGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. fuckin steve hasnt even called me in the past 2 days, what the hell is up with that shit...lol. its all good he's a busy boy and i love him. i cant wait till he comes home again, its only been 4 days since the last time i seem him, and im going insane. when i was with him saturday night we keot getting in little arugments and it was just driving us crazy, so when we went to bed we did some fooling around and right after he went into mikes room to talk to him like right after we were done, and man o man i got so pissed, and usually when i get pissed i dont like to talk about it, so while he was in there i went and chuged 3 beers and opened mikes door and was like im going to bed goodnight, steve was all like whats that matter. then like a min later he finally comes back to bed and was like whats wrong, we got in another arugment and he rolled over to the end of the bed and i did te same. we stayed like that for like 5 mins, then i heard him sniffeling then i went over by him rolled him over to face me so i can see what was wrong and i kept asking him what the matter is and why he was crying and he was i dont know what it is that i am doing that keeps pissing you off and making you mad at me. then at that moment i just start balling my damn eyes out. i told him how hard it is to go day by day not being able to see him, and i told him that i missed him so much that it was truly making me sick, i cant sleep anymore, i eat but not enough it say healthy, and that im just so stressed out and its killing me. so then we just layed there holding eachother till we fell asleep. and havent had a arugment since. i dont know what im gonna do when he has to leave to go to iraq, even thinking about it makes me sick. i just cant wait till hes home from iraq and we move in with eachother and get married and have our own family, this has been a dream of mine since the day i met him, i love him so much. but ok i think thats enough updating for right now....im bored goodbye

100 Question Survey -- everyone wants to kno the real you so fill this out and repost

1. Name: Dayna
2. Your Nick Names: dayday, baby doll, baby, princess ditzy
4. Place of Birth: cleveland
5. Zodiac Sign: aries
6. Male or Female: Female
7.your last name: miller
8. School: none at the time
9. Occupation: looking
10. Residence: willoughby with steves mom
11. Screen Name: sweet_fairy_girl69@msn.com

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: Blonde black, but semi fading
13. Hair Long or Short: longish i guess
14. Eye Color: hazel
15. How do ur nails look: short and pink
16. Height: 5'6ish
17. Do you have a crush on someone: well its not a crush
18. do u like yourself: sometimes
19. Braces?: never
20. think your hott: nope
21. Piercings: ears, nose, and tongue
22. Tattoo: lower back
23. Righty or Lefty: righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

24. First Kiss: steve
25. First B.F/ G.F: matt white
26. First best friend(s): cassie bissell, sara martin
27. First Award: a singing award
28. First Sport You Join: none (lol)
29. First pet: a cat
30. First vacation: new york
31. First Concert: spice girls
32. First Love: steve

___ Favorites___

33. Movie: moulin rouge, mystic river, way to many to name
34. TV Show: family guy, and just other stupid shit
35. Color: pink and black
36. Bands: to many to name)
37. Song: addicted and hear me by kelly clarkson
38. Food: mexican
39. Drink: orange juice
41. Sport To Play: softball, football, basketball
42. Favorite sport To Watch: nascar
43. Brand Of Clothing: Wha Eva i like i buy if i got money (TEE HEE)
44. Stores: erm
45. School:eastlake middle...best years of my life
46. Animal: spider monkeys
47. Books: blah
48. Magazines: cozmo
___Currently___

49. Eating: nothing
50. Drinking: fruit punch
52. Online?: duh
53. Listening to: i hate myself for losing you by kelly clarkson
54. Thinking About: my baby steve
55. Wanting To: be with steve
56. Watching: the screen (duh)
57. Wearing: a black shirt and shorts



___Your Future___

58. Want Kids?: yes
59. Want to Get Married?: well its more like coming really soon
60. Careers in Mind: i wanna become a famous singer but who knows

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

67. Cute or Sexy: both is good
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: both
70. Short or Tall: tall
71. Easygoing or serious: both
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: both yet again
73. Fatty or Skinny: well my mans skinny...wooo
74. Sensitive or Loud: in betweeny lol
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: Both
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant one: well a bit of both

___Have You Ever___

78. Kissed a Stranger: yes
79. Drank Alcohol: yes
80. Smoked: yes...trying to quite
81. Ran Away From Home: for a night
82. Broken a Bone: No
83. Got an X-ray: on my ribs
84. Broken Someones Heart: sorry matt, but i really didnt wanna be with you anymore.
85. Broke Up With Someone: hahah yup
86. Turned Someone Down: yup
87. Cried When Someone Died: too much
88. Cried At School: hahah that was one of my best for some reason

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: yes
90. Miracles: yes
91. Love At First Sight: yes
92. Ghosts: yes
93. Aliens: no, because if there were then they would have taken over the world already
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes
98. Kissing on The First Date: Yep
99. Horoscopes: yes

___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Can't Have? well for the moment yes

ok i guess im done with the survays for right now....im just really freakin bored right now at the moment, and theres nothing better to do. its freakin 4:16am right now i feel asleep at 9pm lastnight and then someone called the house at like 2:10am and woke me up, i been up since...it sucked....it was uncle pain so its all good. my damn head is hearting me tho, i been sick for the past week, like not bad sick but coughing, runny nose, and really bad tummy aches. but oh well i'll live. steve called and hes still not feeling good, the doc told him theres nothing they can really do for him, hes just needs to get some more good sleep and rest, but how the hell can he do that when hes in the freakin army and they have to be outside for hours running around and workingout? i feel so bad for him. i wish he was here so  i can baby him, im good at shit like that.

im really truly getting sick of this weather bullshit. it supposed to be spring and well it doesnt feel like it, its may already where the hell is the warm weather....we had like one amazing day and the rest has been just shitty, cold rain...it sucks ass. dont get me wrong i love the rain to death, i love playing in it and acting like a little kid but noooo its cold rain. hahah i remember the days when megen would sleep over and we would go out and play in the rain. run, jump, dance, and just lay in the street....good old days.

so now im just sitting here bored out of my mind...nothing new. i was over my uncle bobbys house all weekend spending time with my cousin rachel since shes living with him now. god shes so cute looking being pregnet and all. im sooo excited for her its not even funny, i cant wait till she has it. im cryed when i went to the doctors with her and seen her baby on the little screen thingy, shes having a baby girl and shes naming her hanna. the babys due sometime in june....and goodlord in gonna be spoil the shit out of that damn baby. she told me she wants me to have a baby so our kids can grow up with eachother like we did, but i really dont think thats gonna be happening any damn time soon. but hey who knoes.

well im gonna be going and cut this short.....much love ~day~

x: Name - Dayna
:x: Piercings - my tongue and nose, well and ears
:x: Tattoos - on my lower back
:x: Height -5'6"
:x: Shoe size - 9 in a half
:x: Hair color - black
:x: Siblings - blah

LAST..

:x: Movie you rented - umm dont remember
:x: Song you listened to - amerie 1 thing
:x: Song that was stuck in your head- always on my mind by elvis
:x: CD you bought - i dont know
:x: CD you listened to - a cd mix
:x: Person that's called you - my baby steven
:x: Movie you bought - from justin to kelly

DO...

:x: you wish you could live somewhere else - yeah in kentucky so im closer to steve
:x: you think about suicide - not anymore
:x: you believe in online dating - no
:x: others find you attractive - i guess
:x: you want more piercings - no
:x: you like cleaning - yep
:x: you like roller coasters - heck yes i do
:x: you write in cursive or print - print

For or Against....

:x: long distance relationships - well im kinda doing it now i guess, but its different
:x: using - against
:x: suicide - against.
:x: killing people - against
:x: teenage smoking - for.
:x: driving drunk - against
:x: soap operas - for

HAVE YOU...

:x: ever cried over a girl - yea
:x: ever cried over a boy - yep.
:x: ever lied to someone - uh huh
:x: ever been in a fist fight - just arugments
:x: ever been arrested - nope

WHAT...

:x: shampoo do you use - thermasilk... when i wash my hair
:x: shoes do you wear - flip flops
:x: are you scared of - everything

Number


:x: of times I have had my heart broken- once
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? - probably like 5
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper - tons of times
:x: of scars on my body? - a lot
:x: of things in my past that I regret? i feel bad about some things, and regret alot

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

:x: Pretty? no
:x: Funny? i have my moments
:x: Friendly? yes
:x: Amusing? hhahah when i have to be
:x: Loveable? yes
:x: Caring? Definitley
:x: Sweet? sometimes to sweet
:x: Dorky? hahah more then anything

FAVORITE:

:x: Word: gosh
:x: Actor: sean penn
:x: Band: him
:x: Candy: reses
:x: Cartoon: Rocko's Modern Life, ren and stimpy, southpark, bevis and butthead, Aqua Teen
:x: Cereal: cinn. toast crunch
:x: Chewing gum: big red
:x: Color(s): green, pink, red and black
:x: Day of week: saturdays
:x: Jewelry: my engagement ring, and weding band around my neck
:x: Movie(s): to many to think of right now
:x: Song: to many to list
:x: Summer/winter: spring.
:x: Trampolines or swimming pools: Trampolines
:x: Do you believe in love at first sight?: Nope
:x: Do you want children one day & if so, how many? 2

||You ||

:x: Nickname(s): dayday, baby doll, princess ditzy
:x: Glasses/Contacts: neither
:x: Do you have any pets?: 2 dogs, 3 cats, and 2 fish
:x: You get embarrassed: sometimes
:x: What upsets you? being so far from steven

|| Finish the sentence: |

:x: I Love: steven
:x: I Miss: steven
:x: I Wish: steve was here with me right now
:x: I'm Annoyed by: being bored
:x: I Am: fucking hilarious
:x: I Want to Be: a singer
:x: I Would Never: do anything to hurt steve
:x: I'd Rather be: with steve right now
:x: I Will Always be: in love with steve

|| Have you ever.. ||

:x: Thought you were going to die: YES
:x: Flunked a grade: yes
:x: skipped a grade: no
:x: Told someone you loved them and lied: once

Mail finally came from Steve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes my mail came today, they were two beautiful cards, telling me how much he loved me and all the good stuff. i talked to him lastnight and i was asking about what i was gonna be getting and i was like is it gonna be a letter or something? and hes like im not good at writing letters im better talking face to face or on the phone and whatnot.see im the oppeset, but maybe thats a good thing. god i miss him so freakin much its insane. i cant sleep for shit, its that bad.

ok well i'll start with what went on yesterday.....ok well i ended up staying up all night because yeah i cant sleep that good anymore, well anna comes home from work and she was like kurt called me bitching about some woman called her bitching about me and steve using all her cell phone mins, and that she was gonna kill us and huny us down and hurt us really bad. well kurt had caller ID  on his cell phone and he gave us the number so anna calls the number back and was like who is this? this is steves mom and i just wanna know whats going on here. so the woman just starts bitching saying that shes steves birth mom and whatnot and annas freakin out saying what the fuck are you on lady? im steves mother. then the woman hangs up on her. thennn mike comes down stairs like what the hell is going on here? so we tell him the story and mike calls her back saying who the fuck is this? over and over again, and the woman was like im stevens birth mother and im gonna get him back if its the last thing i do. and then hangs up again. so yeah that like really freaked me the fuck out, i wanna know who the hell this woman is who is thinking that steven is her bith son you know, this is like a beggining or a freakin horror movie type thing. so we just droped that and never called back . then i finally took a nap around 2 and woke back up around 5 or so. nothing really happend for the rest of the day. steve called around 10 talked to him for an hour then he got tired and wanted to go to sleep. then watched a few movies and went back to bed. then woke up around 4 in the freakin afternoon. anna was supposed to wake me up so i can help around the house but she told me i been having a hard enough of a time sleeping and she didnt wanna wake me. its 7pm right now and i dont really think anything else is gonna happen for the rest of the night so im just gonna update later.

haha heck yes i didnt wake up till 12 this afternoon, it was so kick ass...lol. but as soon as i got up, i got in the shower scrunched my lovley hair, and just got ready for the day. called erica around 2 and she left and came and got me and ashley to go to the mall. so we get to the mall wooo. erica was talking to brittanys boyfriend in the photo shop and me and ashley went walking around to different stores. we went to the rave and got some new pantys, and we went to limited 2, i got her this cute little pink outfit, its soooo freakin cute. then we came back to the house and nothnig really went on from there. now im just talking to megen and my cousin bridgit online and now im out of here...later

ok well see told ya i'd be here again to update...so woo for me...lol. well lets see today was pretty good. i was supposed to go with my mom and get my nails done but nooo that never happend. then anna (steves mom) asked me if i wasnt to go with them to kurts (ex husband) dads furnal, so i did. me ashley and anna took some pictures down stairs in the smoking room, it was fun, and i actually went out in a skort, it was amazing i never showed off my legs before. i just now need to get some sun on them and i'll be all set. me micheal and ashley left for a little while got something to eat and hook up kurts computer. then we went back to the furnal home and just sat there. i didnt know anyone execpt for the ones i went with. then we leave and go to a bar and chilled there for a little bit, then we left...lol. then were finally on our way back to the house and wooo steve called. wetalked for a good half an hour, god i miss my baby so freakin much its not close to being funny. so he tells me that im getting something in the mail from him...woo finally. he told me i got two things coming and that they should be here by monday or tuesday, and he wasnt gicing me any hints at all what so ever. what a poohead, but i cant help it i love my poohead. i dont know what i'd do without him. well update later bye bye.

so wow its been a freakin long ass time since i last updated on here. well lets see i stoped all my partying habbits, thank god. my long time friend and i have been dating now for 5 months and he asked me to married him on my birthday this year...best birthday gift ever. hes in the army so we really dont get to see much of eachother, which really freakin sucks, but when he gets time off and is able to come home its so worth it. i cant wait to get married to him and be his wife, and be known as Dayna Layton...how perfect does that look together, i love it. god i miss him so much its making me sick, i keep looking at my ring, and just wishing he was here with me, because if he was i wouldnt be here online right now. i'd be laying in his beautiful arms telling him how much i love him. the greatest part is that i know that this is sooo ment to be, we dated when i was 16 then we broke up because we went to different schools, we dated other people, and then 4 years later ended up back with eachother. but now its different because now were staying with eachother forever, we know how life is with eachother and without eachother, and we both choose to stay with eachother. after he gets back from iraq (so 2 years from now) we will be having our wedding and then i'll be moving to kentucky with him because he wants to stay in the army, but thats a good thing, and i'll be able to be there with him, and we can build our family from there. we both wanna have a baby boy for our first time. get a puppy...lol. i just cant wait to live the rest of my life with him. i love him more then anything, more then words can say. i dont know what i would do if it wasnt for him, i live for him, i breath for him. i cant sleep without him peacefully. every love song i hear i think of him and start to cry. i just wish he was here with me right now and not 9 hours away, but i better get going before this gets to much longer...peace

ok starting with friday....joey, britt and kayleigh were all over and we chilled at my house for a few house just smoking and talking, it was fun, DankKBjoint....hahah dont ask its a inside joke. well it was about time for kayleigh to leave so we droped her off at home. we ran into tony on the way to her house and me and joey were in the back seat making funny faces at him....lol. then after we droped kayleigh off joey and me forgot that one of us had to go in the front seat, and joey was about to jump over the seat so i grabed his arm and got out of the car and ran up there while britt was waiting at a stop sign. joey got pissed because i beat him....hahahahah but he got over it. well then we went back to my house smoked some more, then went driving around and i had to get the backseat this time because we were in joeys car this time and britt wanted the front seat. i was like falling asleep in the back seat but fuckin joey kept turning the raido up really loud and it kept waking me the fuck up. then we went to the melon heads again and we stoped on the cry baby bridg and i was fuckin in the backseat by my damn self and i was scared shitless and fuckin joey kept saying he was hearing footsteps trying to scare me even more. hes a dick like that. then we left and i had to pee even more and joey didnt wanna stop, so i told him if he didnt stop i was gonna piss in the back seat....lol.. then he stoped at this gas station and the bathroom there was soooooo grose i took tolit paper and put it like all around the seat, and when i came out joey was like damn i thought you fell in. then when we got back to madison we went to tylers house and chilled there for awhile and smoked more....lol. hmmm it was me, joey, britt, tyler, chris, dave, jimmy, jenny, and i think thats about it who was there. oh man while we were there fuckin dave gave me and britt these pills and whatnot and it made me feel drunk execpt i can still tell what i was doing. it was time for us to leave, and joey was staying the night there so he just droped me and britt off. while we were leaving tylers house i was like falling over, and when i was tryning to get my shoes on i had to hold on to joey....lol. then we got back to my house i got out of joeys house and almost fell again. i went over to joeys side of the car and i was like get out and he was like why, and i was like i want a hug like never before....it was one of our old inside jokes. well he got out and omg i thought he was gonna kill me he was squeezing me to hard and then he picked me up and put me down and after we stoped hugging i fell on my ass.....it was so funny. at first he wasnt gonna help me up, but he was like just joking and he helped me up....lol. well dave and jimmy were right behind us and i had to sneek them in. it was like 2 am and i had them go through my damn window....i swear to god everyone i know has gone in and out of my window...its great. well me, britt, dave, and jimmy were all in my room, and britt likes jimmy so that was cute to see them together, i want them to date sooooo bad. well the rest of that night was boring and they left at like 8 in the morning. after they left britt and i stayed up and talked a little more and she was telling me how she wants me and joey together and shit like that, and i just told her it will probably never happen. but who knows, maybe after hes 18 or something. i dont know. well we finally fell asleep and she had to leave at 10 and i didnt even know she left but she told me i wast talking to her when she did, but i talk in my sleep so maybe i did.
well now its saturday and i didnt wake up till 4pm fuckin chris came over and woke me up. he like jumped on me and started tickeling me to death, and i hid under my covers and he got under and tryed kissing me, i kinda freaked out and said no. well my mom made him leave because i had to clean a little bit, but she said he was aloud back over later, so later rools around and chris came back over with like a 24case of beer and we had to sneek that in my room. i drank like 10 beers and woooo doggy i got drunk. then chris started tickeling me again and he kissed me, we made out for like hours, execpt i dont really like how he kisses, hes teeth are to big or something because they kept hitting my lips....it sucked, but i was in a makingout mood so i kept doing it. then we feel asleep and my mom comes in my room and wakes us up at like 2 in the morning...then after he left i went to sleep.
and now sunday comes along which is today well i didnt wake up till like 4pm again. and when i woke up i asked my mom if anyone called and she told me britt called, so i call her back and she wanted to know if i can go driving around with he, so i just told her to come on over and i would, but i had to finsh the dishes, so then after i was all done with that we went driving around and whatnot didnt get back to my house till around 7 and we just came in my room and chilled and played on the computer and blah blah blah, then 8 rools around and she had to go home. so now im just sitting here talking to my megen....lol.. love ya megen.....welll im out now pease

so yeah today i got my fuckin period in the middle of the day, i was pissed. then i also woke up with a sti on my eye lid and it hurts like a mother fucker.joey was supposed to come over today but never did....oh man hes gonna hear it from me...lol. matt came over today trying to make me feel like shit again, but this time it worked, he was telling me shit like i was his first love and blah blah blah....then after he left a few hours later he calls me and we started talking about the same bull shit. he was telling me how now that i kicked him out hes been living on the streets, and lastnight he slept at the madison township park just so he can be close to me, and he was like i was gonna sleep in your backyard on the picknic table but you would have known....how fucked up is that shit. my mom and i got in a arugment over money today just because i asked her if i can have like 20$. everything to day just went bad. and todat seemed to go on forever and not end....well till now. i think i might go to bed early tonight so tomorrow can come faster. brittany, kayleigh are sleeping over tomorrow night....woooooo. and joeys gonna see if he can get out so he can hang out with us. i hope he can get out. well so much for my boring and sucky day...im out

damn the past few weeks have been insane. i dont really remeber it all but i remember most....lol. just the past few days at least. well i'll just start with the day that i broke up with matt. i really didnt wanna break up with him at the time, but i knew i had to do it. i wasnt happy with him, so yeah starting with the begining of the day. it was like around 1:30 because joey came over right after school, and matt and i were fighting all morning because he hit me on the side of the face. well matt and i started fighting again in front of joey and that pissed me off even more because i didnt wanna fight in front of joey. well while matt and i were fighting matt decided to tell me to to and die. joey looked at me because he knew i was gonna be pissed, well i got up after matt said that to me and i was gonna leave the room and then matt grabed my arm and pulled me on the bed and i almost flew out the damn window. joey just kept telling matt to chill the fuck out. well then like a few mins later brittany came over thank god because after that we didnt fight for awhile. BUT....than matt was like joey come for a walk with me we got to talk. oh man i was freakin the hell out i didnt know what the hell was gonna happen. i kept giving joey the eye like noooo dont go, but he went anyways. when they went outside they just stayed by the door and were talking and i wanted so bad to know what the hell matt was telling him, even tho i had a pretty good idea. i had britt go outside to her car to act like she was getting something, so she can see whats going on, but when she went out there she told me they stoped talking, and then a few mins later, they came back in and matt went to the bathroom and i was like joey what the hell did he say to you? and joey told me that matt told him that i was still in love with joey and matt left like he was in the way or something like that. and wooo man i was about to bitch up a damn storm. i mean yes i told matt that i was still in love with joey well because i am, yes i still have feelings for him, but that doesnt mean im gonna act apon it, i wanna try and work this friend thing out with him. well joey didnt have a problem with matt telling him that, actually it kinda made me and joey closer now, and joey told me that he always knew i was still in love with him. but i dont know. well joey and britt left my house and matt and i started fighting AGAIN....i told matt i didnt wanna be with him, and he was way out of line today and im not happy with him and i just dont wanna be with him any longer. it was killing me being with someone i wasnt happy with and didnt love as much as they loved me. he kept begging me not to leave him, and try to work things out with him but i kept saying no. then something he did pissed me off really bad and he started tearing up and pic of me and him and he through it at my face really hard and i just looked at him like what the hell, and i smacked him as hard as i could across the face, my hand hurt so bad after. he like grabed him face and started crying. made me feel bad but in away it didnt because i knew it was the right thing to do. i kicked him out of my house and stared packing all his stuff up and cooled down a little and then got on the computer and talked to joey more. joey helped me out alot that night. if it wasnt for him i would probably have like 10 holes in my wall thats how pissed i was, i like wanted to kill someone. well we talked till like 3 in the morning and just bullshited about everything. and telling me i can get someone so much better then matt, i just got to open my eyes more, and think of myself better. well nothing happend yesterday execpt hung out with kayleigh, britt, and jenny, and cleaned my room. and then today was freakin long as hell man. britt and kayleigh came over and woke my ass up, kayleigh jumped on top of me...lol. and then britt had to be home at 2 and kayleigh stayed and then joey and matt kuntz came over and i took and shower and got ready for the day. joey kept making sure i was ok and shit, i thought that was sweet of him. then britt came back and my mom was getting pissed that i had to many people in the house so joey and matt left and me kayleigh and britt just drove around for like 2 hours and came back to my house to think of something to do, then we went to the mall and looked around, i ran into a few old friends of mine it was cool. i ran into chris wilson, i use to like him alot, i ran up to him and gave him a big ass hug and he was like wow you changed, and i was like in a good or bad way, and he looked me up and down and he was like goodddd....lol. it was so funny. then me, kay, and britt left and went to kays house chilled there for a little bit and britt droped me off at home and now here i am updating my damn journal.....how fun....well im gonna get going now....peace

today has just been the worst day ever so far...and its only 5:11pm. my mom and her boyfriend got in a really big fight and now me and matt have to move out by the end of this month, and its not even because of me. she told me the reasons are because her boyfriend doesnt like driving matt to work everyday and blah blah blah...all the rest went in one ear and out the other. and now im all out of cigs and that just sucks ass. i really dont know what else to update because nothing else happend. so im gonna get going, and hope something better happends today. later fuckers

perfect guy or girl survey....


Hair color?: brown or black

Eye color? : blue eyes make me weak to my knees

Height?: Taller than me

Six pack? : of beer...lol.

Long hair or short?: Shaggy...i wanna be able to run my hands through it

Glasses?: I don't really like glasses

Piercings? : their hott, but it doesnt matter

Eyebrows? : two not one

Big butt or little? : doesnt matter as long as it looks nice

Chest hair? : ewww hell no.

Buff or skinny? : little of both

Teeth? : as long as he brushes

Section 2

Funny or serious? : funny, i always fall for the funny guy

Party-hopper or more stay-at-home? : party-hopper

Should he be able to bake or cook? : ummm sure

Does he have a best friend? : yeah why the hell not....lol

Is it okay for him/her to have a lot of female/male friends? : yeah...just as long as he knows im the only girl for him....hehehe

Out-going or shy? : out-going just like me

Sarcastic or sincere? : little of both

Does he love his mother? : he doesnt have to

Should he watch chick-flicks? : no...i dont even like chick flicks that much

Would he be a smoker? : hell yeah....he needs to keep up with me...lol

How about a drinking? : yeah...duhhh

And swearing?: Hell if I can,he can

Would he play with your hair? : if he wanted too. make me horny

Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time?: No

Would he pay for you when you're on a date?: depends on if im broke or not

Does he kiss on the first date? : hehehe if hes my perfect guy maybe more then that

Where would you go for dinner?: hahha doesnt matter

Would he buy you flowers?: if he wanted to....but if he did blood red roses please...lol

Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies? : yeah....i love the stars

Would he write poetry about you? : if he feels like it

Would he use endearments? : I don't know what you're talking about

Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends?: Yessss

How about you hanging out with him and HIS friends?: Yup

Would he walk you up to the door at the end of the evening?: Mhm!

Would you hold hands?: i love holding hands...i dont know what it is about it, but i just love it

Section 3

Does he play soccer? : ewww no

Baseball? : naw

Football? : it watch.... yeah

Basketball?: maybe for fun

Water polo?: hahahah does going swimming count

Golf or something equally boring?: lol no

Does he surf?: that would be cool, i always wanted to try

Skateboard?: if he can..i dont see why not

Snowboard?: wooo hell yeah bitch....i think snowboarders are hott...lol.

Can he sing? : yes

Play the guitar?: yes

Play piano?:no

Play the drums?: no

Can he keep his room clean? : cleaner then mine i hope

Is he an artist of sorts?: i like guys that can draw....

Does he write his own music? : yeah

Does he have pets? : yes

Section 4

Does he use the word dude?: hahahah yeah

How about tight?: no

Would he watch the sun rise and set with you?: Yeah

What kind of car does he drive?: doesnt matter as long as we get from here to there

How old is he?: 420
What's his name? : marywanna.....hahahahah.....

oh man im so sorry i havent updated in the past 2 days, just been kinda busy. but i start on thuresday. well ok thuresday was alright, aruged with matt a little bit more but then we made up like we always do. britt called me and she came over, we went to blockbuster and rented a few movies, matt, britt, and i watched mean girls all together, i thought that was a good movie, but matt kept laughing at me for picking out a gay movie, but i just happend to like it so pooo on him..lol. then britt had to leave, i was so sad, i wanted her to stay, i always get sad when she leaves. well now friday night, which was lastnight. woke up watched dawsons creek like i do every morning. then around 12 i started cleaning, i did the dishes, washed the kitchen floor, cleaned the diningroom, and living room, thne vaccomed, then i had to clen the bathroom, and wash the bathroom floor, it sucked i hate cleaning..lol. my mom came home from work like around 3 and then her and dino took matt to work, and then dino had bandpractic so thank fuckin god they took danny with them....so woooo dayday had the house to herself. so i was just sitting in the living room and megen called and talked to her for a little bit, and then i called kayleigh to see what she was doing and if she wanted to hang out and whatnot. and she said yeah, but then i told her i had to wait till britt got her so she can come and get her. then i got off the phone with kay and started watching tv for awhile, almost freakin falling asleep, kayleigh kept calling like every 15mins. asking me where britt was, and i actually really didnt know. well like a hour later britt shows up and she was with luke and joey, we went to go get something then they had to drop me back off at my house because they had to go get someone else to go get what we needed. then again while they were gone kayleigh calls me back and asked if britt showed up yet and i was like yeah but they had to leave again, but their coming back, and i forgot to ask britt if she would come get her, but i would ask when she got back. so they finally got back and and this other dude was with them, he had a strange name i dont remember it....lol. well we got to smoking and kayleigh called me again. and i asked britt if we can go get her, but britt was to fucked up at the time and said no, then kayleigh got all pissed at started bitching at me, she was all like they been there the whole time i been calling im sorry but im not stupid like denysse, and i was like no kayleigh this is the first time you have called since they been here, and she just kept saying im not stupid like denysse, then then yes i got to bitching at her for calling me a fuckin lier, i was like no kayleigh you must be fuckin stupid like denysse, and even more, because im not fuckin lieing to you just stfu and i hung up on her and she never called me back again after that. but i dont fuckin care she really pissed me off. then we got back to smoking again, and wow i got fucked up. luke stated playing with our fog blower, turned off all the lights and turned on the strob lite. hahah it was great. the other dude who was with us was sitting right in front of the strob light and holy shit he looked freaky as hell. he kept singing and fuckin up the words it was so funny. me, joey, and britt were all sitting on the couch, just freakin out....lol. then i made luke turn off the strob lite and put the fog blower away. then we all just sat there watching joeys friend sing and shit, god i wish i can remember his fuckin name. but joeys friend like kept staring at me and like singing to me, joey whispered in my ear that he thinks his friend likes me. and i was just like ummmm how about not my type....lol. and joey laughed. time passed and joey god hungry and so i made him ramen noodle...hahahah. he started making it but was making it wrong so i told him i would do it...lol. so joey and i just stayed in the kitchen and talked. he was freaky because hes like look at my socks and he was wearing one of my socks and hahah i was like hey joey look at my socks and i just happen to be wearing a pair of his socks....it was fucked up....lol. i really dont remember what else we talked about....lol. but the soup was done, so we went to the living room. we stoped smoking because they all had to be home at 8 :( . well it was like 10mins before 8 and they droped that one dude off and they came back and got me and we went to tops to get some eye drops and i ran into jess berlin....omg i was so happy to see her, i love that girl. than after that we went to mcdonldes we all got some food, and then they droped me off and joey had to go pee so when i went to go unlock the door i was doing it really slow to piss him off and i was like i cant find the hole the key goes in. and he was like damnit dayna hurry the hell up....hahahah it was so funny. and when we got in the house he was like damn i never have trouble finding the hole, and i was like nope no you dont....and holy hell that boy pee'd for a every long ass time. he pee'd for like 5 mins....lol. then when he was done he asked me for a cigg and i gave him one and we hugged and he left, they all left, grrrrr i hate when they have to leave, but woooo this week im not gonna have to worrie about it because im gonna be with britt everyday, day in and day out.....im so fuckin excited. well i started watching a movie and passed out...lol. and not today is saturday morning and i have nothing to update....so i guess i'll update later tonight....later

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY MATT!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU HUN!!!
ok well anywas on with my day today. joey stoped over today like as soon as he got out of school. and he stoped by to say hi to me and i told him today was matts birthday and joey told him happy birthday, i thought it was cute. lol. i dont know why. well then joey left and gave me a hug and then later britt and kayleigh came over, we watched my home movie, and she was laughing her ass off. and holy shit, tony called me and he was like whos all over? and i was like britt and kayleigh and he was like thats cool. and then like out of no where he was like say hi kim, and the first thing that popped in my head was kim joeys mom, i started flipping out and through the phone at britt and she was like hello? and tony was like say hi, and britt asked tony kim who and he was like one of the girls i work with, i almost cryed just thinking to my self thank god....lol. i was so scared. and then after we got off the phone with tony and out of no where kayleigh was like dayna i bet you i know why joeys mom hates you, and i was like why? and she was like because she knew you had his heart. and i was just thinking to myself yeah im sure i did, and then i was just like ok kayleigh can we not talk about this? and she was like ok im sorry. ahhhhhh i like wanted to scream at her for saying that, every time shes over shes always gotta say something about me and joey, eaither asking me if we have fucked yet again, or have we done anything yet. and its always the same answer NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!. WERE ONLY FRIENDS AND NOTHING MORE FOR THE LAST TIME. well anyways now im sitting here bored as hell. as soon as matt gets home im gonna show him the birthday cake i made him and then were gonna watch leprechaun- back 2 tha hood, i hope its a good movie, and well after that were gonna fuck....lol. ok well im gonna get going.....later